I didn’t pay attention to what the lecturer was saying. My mind was far from what was happening in class. I kept trying to assure myself that I can do this. The more I assured myself that I can do it, the more I get nervous. I left the school immediately lecture ended and went home. I needed to rest my head before it explode. I quickly lay on my bed to take a nap. The knock on my door woke me up hours later. I turned my gaze to the the wall clock in my room and realized it was 6:15pm already. I quickly sat up and stretched my body. That should be Sharon. She’s definitely here for the tutorial. I stood up from my bed and walked to the door. I opened my door and saw her already glowing with smiles. “Hi Christian” she greeted. “Hi” I responded “hope you are ready” she said. “Sure. please come in”. She walked into my room and sat on my bed. I locked my door and went to sit beside her. Though I was nervous but I won’t allow that to prevent the tutorial from holding. If I can’t be confident enough to be in the same room with Sharon, how then can I be confident to face a large crowd. I need to make sure that the tutorial goes smoothly. I won’t disappoint this time. “Can we start?” Sharon asked. “Yes, I’m ready” I responded. She brought out a book and a pen from her bag and gave to me. I collected it from her and began immediately. I spoke confidently without being nervous. After a while of teaching, she moved closer to me and rested her head on my shoulder. I paused for a while, took a deep breath and continued. I fixed my gaze on the book I was holding as I tutored her. I didn’t take my gaze off the book. It was the best way for me not to get nervous. I continued that way and later decided to asked her a question, for the tutorial to be interactive. I asked her a question and waited for her to answer but I got no reply. I asked the question again but got no reply. I slowly raised my head to see her staring deeply into my eyes. Cold shiver went down my spine, but I remained calm. I stared back at her. I was really nervous, but I didn’t take off my gaze from her. I don’t want her to realize I was nervous. We kept staring into each other eyes until she finally took her gaze off. I heaved a sigh of relief immediately. While I was still trying to gain control of myself, she turned back to me and stared deeply into my eyes. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as I stared back at her. All of a sudden, our faces drew closer to each other. Her lips were almost touching mine. Her eyes were already closed, but mine were wide open in shock. My door suddenly opened. I quickly turned my gaze to the door to see Sylvia standing at the door. She stared at us open-mouthed. Sharon quickly sat up properly and adjusted her blouse. Sylvia fixed her gaze on us for a while before she finally spoke. “I’m very sorry for barging in. I didn’t know you guys are busy. I will just take my leave now” she said. “Sylvia I……..” I tried to speak but she walked out of my room, slamming the door behind her.
I quickly stood up from my bed and rushed out of my room but she was no where to be found. I returned to my room to see Sharon already standing. “Maybe we should continue tomorrow. let me leave for now” she said. “Okay” I responded.
I lay on my bed immediately Sharon left my room. I sighed and took my phone from my bed. I dialed Sylvia number and waited for her to pick but she didn’t pick. I continued dialing her number but she still didn’t pick the call. I waited for about five minutes and dialed her number again, but this time, it was switched off. I dropped my phone on my bed and took a deep breath.
Why is she not picking my call? What is she thinking? I asked myself.